This afternoon after a self cooked hearty meal I sat with nothing to do, no power & no gadget to engage with, I had these train of thoughts(questions would be more appropriate) running
" What am i gonna do next?"
Now that's a biggie. After the debacle i.e,. GATE I was a bit taken aback.Had I cleared it, I would hv happily gotten into some college for my masters and this question wouldn't arise, as my options would hv been simplified and encouraging. But that didn't happen and now I am at this crossroad. I can be either optimistic or be a pessimist and brood over this. So I decided to kick awake the optimist in me and was amazed at the thought " Now I hav lot more choices than I can ever dream of, I can crack next years GATE or go on and prepare for CAT and get an MBA to my name, or fly away writing GRE or I can go in search of a job and be happy that I started earning when half my friends are out there fighting with books :-p."
For a while this looked encouraging but I found out some thing
" Choosing and being happy with our choices is always inversely proportional to no. of choices available"
I.e,. the lesser choices u have the happier u will be with the choice made. We humans tend to second guess our choices. What if i am wrong? What if my choices backfire? . the questions arise as we believe that only one of that choice available to u is right and all others lead to doom. So now the probability of us picking that option is 1 in N where N is the no. of choices available. So by seeing that the odds are staked so high we knowingly or unknowingly fear that our choice may be wrong. Since we've got no simulators or mathematical models to predict the results we have to rely on our instincts.
We fear the results as at the end of the day it is we who face consequences. And facing consequences is a big fear(at least to me). But I backed myself saying or rather promising " I am ready to face consequences". Then my thoughts shifted to this idea" What are consequences but the situation or state that is result of chain reaction of events right from starting to the end.
Our life is not like our labs where practical values should match the theoretical values, and here comes my revelation " To hell with d consequences. If you are happy about the decisions you make then you will enjoy the result which the world says is a failure. B'cos u put in the effort & would't mind thee li'l tripping. So I came up with a 2 point solution
->Listen to ur heart and do what needs to be done.
->Stop worring if u really did listen to ur heart.
Now I am ready to face my first question " What am I gonna do now?"
Then there was this sudden burst of crazy ideas ranging from starting a day care center to setting up a food court and even crazier ones like being a hippie. Suddenly with a big WHOOOSH!! cool air from fan hit my sweaty self indicating the signs of redemption saving me from the hot sunny afternoon and boredom.And the next thing I know I am here on internet listening to Kenny Loggin's "Highway to the danger zone" and typing this shit leaving my most important question for anothertime.
" What am i gonna do next?"
Now that's a biggie. After the debacle i.e,. GATE I was a bit taken aback.Had I cleared it, I would hv happily gotten into some college for my masters and this question wouldn't arise, as my options would hv been simplified and encouraging. But that didn't happen and now I am at this crossroad. I can be either optimistic or be a pessimist and brood over this. So I decided to kick awake the optimist in me and was amazed at the thought " Now I hav lot more choices than I can ever dream of, I can crack next years GATE or go on and prepare for CAT and get an MBA to my name, or fly away writing GRE or I can go in search of a job and be happy that I started earning when half my friends are out there fighting with books :-p."
For a while this looked encouraging but I found out some thing
" Choosing and being happy with our choices is always inversely proportional to no. of choices available"
I.e,. the lesser choices u have the happier u will be with the choice made. We humans tend to second guess our choices. What if i am wrong? What if my choices backfire? . the questions arise as we believe that only one of that choice available to u is right and all others lead to doom. So now the probability of us picking that option is 1 in N where N is the no. of choices available. So by seeing that the odds are staked so high we knowingly or unknowingly fear that our choice may be wrong. Since we've got no simulators or mathematical models to predict the results we have to rely on our instincts.
We fear the results as at the end of the day it is we who face consequences. And facing consequences is a big fear(at least to me). But I backed myself saying or rather promising " I am ready to face consequences". Then my thoughts shifted to this idea" What are consequences but the situation or state that is result of chain reaction of events right from starting to the end.
Our life is not like our labs where practical values should match the theoretical values, and here comes my revelation " To hell with d consequences. If you are happy about the decisions you make then you will enjoy the result which the world says is a failure. B'cos u put in the effort & would't mind thee li'l tripping. So I came up with a 2 point solution
->Listen to ur heart and do what needs to be done.
->Stop worring if u really did listen to ur heart.
Now I am ready to face my first question " What am I gonna do now?"
Then there was this sudden burst of crazy ideas ranging from starting a day care center to setting up a food court and even crazier ones like being a hippie. Suddenly with a big WHOOOSH!! cool air from fan hit my sweaty self indicating the signs of redemption saving me from the hot sunny afternoon and boredom.And the next thing I know I am here on internet listening to Kenny Loggin's "Highway to the danger zone" and typing this shit leaving my most important question for anothertime.
